Racing a Deadline: QSF’s Annual Flash Fiction Contest


For the last two years I have entered Queer Sci Fi’s annual flash fiction contest without any success in making it into the anthology. I am still determined, however, to give it another go. Third times the charm, as they say, even if each year QSF is getting an influx in entries which lessens the odds of making it in the published book. This year’s contest is coming up on its deadline — which was even extended an extra week due to the troubles of this current time. When I say the deadline is coming up, too, I really mean that the deadline is tomorrow (April 17th). Eek!

I am nothing but predictable when it comes to deadlines. As per normal for me I have procrastinated until the end and now I have about twenty-four hours to churn out a cohesive 300 word flash fiction piece centering around the theme of “innovation” that features some queer content.

Nevertheless! I am pushing forward to get something ready to submit by midnight tomorrow. At the very least I have had a few ideas in the works for weeks now. There are half started story lines of dialogue in my phone notes and half asleep scribbled notes of potential plot next to them. As well as a work conversation from weeks ago that turned into a scarily appropriate topic and potential plot for the current world pandemic.  So I have about three ideas I will toss around to see what works and what comes out best to use in submitting.

Of course, waiting till the last minute pretty much means I won’t be getting any critiquing on my work before I submit my flash piece. Many of you writers probably just cringed and cried at that statement. The last two years I have looked for feedback before submitting, which is normally a must for any writer before hitting that send button. I half wonder if not having time for it this year is a good thing for me. I do enough of weekly flash fiction challenges that never see fresh eyes before I hit submit on a blog comment, so perhaps I just need to trust my own gut this year. However, I do realize the disadvantage I am at when I don’t normally write queer stories. Like I said though: this year I am trusting my gut. Potentially daring and risky but I’m going for it. What do I really have to lose? There’s no admission fee, no risk to the rights of my story if I’m not chosen for the anthology. The only thing I risk is another blow to the heart if I get a rejection email weeks from now.

All in all, if you’re looking for a last minute thing to do like me, and you feel inspired by the theme of this year, you’ve still got a little bit of time to try to submit. All details to the contest can be found by clicking the hyperlink in the first paragraph above.

Now I must go off and try to wrestle out a 300 word story. Perhaps I will actually have a Snippet Sunday post for a week or two if I manage to get a story submitted in time! Imagine that. I’ve done that the last two years also so it’s been a year since I shared any snippets of anything. We shall see. This coming Sunday will tell.

Planning A Year


It’s officially 2017. I hope everyone’s New Year so far is shaping up as they had hoped. I’m sure there’s lots of new goals and resolutions and hope out there. Whatever you’re aiming to better or do this year, good for you; and if you have no resolutions, well, then, good for you too.

After talking about my accomplishments, half accomplishments, and failures of last year’s goals on Friday, I spent the last couple days thinking over goals and resolutions and trying to organize myself for the new year. Normally I don’t do resolutions, I just do goals, but this year I seem to have written a few things off as resolutions.

Which brings me to something interesting I saw. The other day I was searching Google images for something relating to goals and resolutions. In a lot of images I found they were crossing out the word “resolutions” and replacing it with “goals”. Or they were simply saying “goals, not resolutions”. That took me a little be surprise and I wondered, “why?” Why do they say goals not resolutions?

Naturally, I looked into it a bit and found that the meaning behind those images were to set goals that you could physically work toward, a plan, not a resolution that you don’t know how to go about. Think about it…

Say your resolution this year was to get fit. Okay, great. You want to get fit. Now if I were to ask you how are you going to do that, would you have an answer for me right away? Would you have a plan? Maybe some of you do, but when you list something so vague and broad, it can leave you fumbling.

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That’s why they say make goals, not resolutions. Goals can be specific, goals can have a path you can follow toward. Goals can make you plan how to go about achieving it in tiny steps so it doesn’t look so daunting a monster to conquer. I’ve learned that over the past year, and now I’m really starting to see why it’s so much easier that way. Even so, it can be easy to overbook yourself on goals if you feed them too many growth hormones. Never forget though that goals can be broken down. Even the most humungous and fiercest of them all can be broken down into tiny little pieces, limb by limb, stage by stage until the monster you built can be seen as tiny little monsterlings that are more easily conquerable.  And each monsterling you conquer you can put back into place, now tamed, and watch how your goal is shaping up and building until you are so close to achieving it and becoming the master.


That gives you motivation. To watch it grow, to watch yourself actually achieving the steps toward that monster of a goal. No matter your goal, it can be the same process, you only have to be careful you make the goal realistic in the time frame you set yourself for it, otherwise your monster will become too scary and seem to grow bigger and bigger day by day until he crushes you instead of you taming him.

And that brings me to the goals I’ve been putzing over the past couple days. I found myself labeling some things as resolutions, but only because they are something I want to make habit in a sense. They are still goals in a way that I have a plan on how to go about them, but for the sake of organization I labeled them as resolutions because they aren’t a one-and-done type of goal. They are constant.

Once I finally had my goals listed out and I had begun to shape out my planner, I tried to work out a timeframe that I could work with for each one. To do that I grabbed notecards — one for each month, and one simply for daily things — and started mapping things out.

While I may have a rough time frame worked out now, I still do not have a detailed, written plan of every goal. That was today’s plan, because it is much easier to type it out as I think in a post and then copy it down to my secondary planner, then it is to write it once on paper — in pen — and be perfect. I work it out in head here and then I’ll be good to copy it all to paper and get to work on achieving things.

So here we go. Down the rabbit hole for a look into the way my mind thinks. Hopefully you don’t get scared off by the monsters that are my goals.


As I said above, I am simply labeling daily things I wish to make more habit in my life as resolutions, but they are still goals I can work toward and achieve in order to make them habit.

This is something I began to try my hand at last year and it never really worked out. That was partly due to the fact I wasn’t entirely sure on what I was doing. I had always believed that in meditation my mind was supposed to be utterly quiet, not a single wisp of thought. In just three days alone since this new year began I learned that isn’t quite true, and it’s already begun to help, because now I’m not so frustrated that I’m yelling at my mind to be quiet and I’m actually getting somewhere. (Yelling at yourself in mediation doesn’t exactly help you relax.)

So this is something I wish to become a daily habit, even if it’s only for a couple minutes a day. It certainly helps to have someone doing it with you, too, both for support and for making sure you did it. It also helps to follow a 30 day challenge to get yourself some instruction — if you’re a bit of a beginner like myself — or to simply remember to do it.

Do Yoga/Workout Once a Day
Another thing I wish to make a daily habit. Once again, I started doing both yoga and small workouts last year but it’s hard to have any free or alone time in my home to be able to do it. The only open enough space I have to work out is in the living room, and with a constant hovering patron of this house, it’s extra hard to get any alone time to simply do this. If I get lucky enough to score the house to myself, great! Either yoga or a small workout session is the first thing I’ll go to downstairs. If not, then I might be waiting until midnight to have the chance to be alone downstairs.

Granted, I can do some minor things that don’t require space in my own room, but it isn’t much I can do. Also, once the weather turns to spring, I can easily go outside to get away to complete this daily. I think the best thing about this one is I’m giving myself some leeway with it. Perhaps one day I’ll get to do some yoga and the next two or so I won’t be able to due to space constraints, but I’ll still be able to do some easier workouts that don’t require the same space. Or perhaps once it warms up I’ll count my workout as going for a walk, or a run. It won’t always be the same, and that’ll give me flexibility so I don’t get bored with it or tired of it quickly.

I won’t need to join a gym or spend a ton of money to do this either. I could grab a couple things from where I work that I can workout at home with, and there’s always YouTube to look up any kind of workout video imaginable. It’s not the same as a gym, but it’s still better than nothing and easier to fit into an ever-changing work schedule.

Be Awake By 11am
Everyone knows I’m a major night owl. In the past month or so I started to really, really sleep in late. My day wouldn’t really start until one or two in the afternoon because I wasn’t getting up until noon or later. I partly blame that on work and just being exhausted over the holiday season, but it’s also cutting into the ability to manage my time.

To help that, I’m trying to make myself be in bed, lights out, by or at 3am. That way even if I need to be up around eight or nine for work I’m still getting five to six hours of sleep, instead of my two or three I did a lot last year, and the year before. The reasoning behind this is to hopefully have somewhere between six to seven hours a night and still be able to get things done as I hope to since I’m most active at night. That’s the hope at least, we’ll see how it works out, especially if I start getting the ungodly shift of 5am again.

Better Time Management
I royally sucked at this last year and let a lot of things slide until last minute that left a lot of scrambling, a lot of stress, and a lot of weight on my shoulders. I hope to change that this year.

At one point I asked a friend last year how she did it. Her response was a simple one, but it stuck with me.

“It’s easier to stay caught up than to play catch up.”

Alright, so that may not be the exact words of months ago, but that’s the concept. It’s never left my mind, and I’ve realized just how right she is. It’s much easier to simply stay on track than to be running to catch up, especially when you have so much going on.

So this year I am going to try to manage my time better. Part of that ties in with being up a little earlier. As things come, I’m going to try to complete them. For instance… The Snippet Sunday blog hop always happens on Sunday (though it technically starts Saturday with a couple), so by Monday night I want to have gone through all the blogs so I don’t have to worry about it the rest of the week. If I work the long afternoon to close shift on a blog post day, I want to try to complete that post before I go to bed, or at least have a draft of it so I’m not scrambling the next day to write a half-assed one. As mail comes in, junk or otherwise, I want to have it gone through, paid, replied to, pitched and/or filed away within a day or two. If I shop at all, I want to put things away in a timely fashion instead of leaving them sit in the corner of my room as I started doing. Keeping my desk clear is going to be the same concept. Scheduling my Sunday Snippet posts will be something I take one or two at a time, so that doing four or five at a time doesn’t take so long.

In all I just need to keep on top of things instead of simply shrugging them off for later. “Later” is a word I want to stop using this year.

Use My Planner
This is what’s going to help with my time management. I started using a simple, kind of stupid planner last year. After the first two months maybe I just kind of stopped looking at it. This year I bought a new one, a better one, and the hope is to keep at this year.

The best things about this one are I can actually flip to a certain month via tabs, and it has both a monthly calendar and pages of day by day to write things in. The calendar itself will allow me to write down events, birthdays, mercury’s retrogrades, deadlines, what days need posts, and so forth. The day to day pages will help me plan out my week with everything else.

I used to keep a simple lined notebook that I would write down “Week of January 1st” at the top and then list the things I wanted to do that week. I never broke it down further though. Now, since I still use that notebook to help organize myself — and that’s actually the notebook I will copy these goals down into — I can organize even further by breaking that week page down into daily by writing them into my planner.

Now so long as I stick to that and actually open both my planner and notebook, I should be good.

Write Consistently
This was a goal I held last year as well, and pretty much failed on. This year I’m going to try once more to hold myself accountable to writing at least something each week, even if it’s simply a 100 words a day, even if it’s fifty words a day. I don’t care if it ends up being a 100 words a week, I just need to stop letting myself fall off the wagon during non-NaNo months.

This year, I hope that the support of friends will help hold me accountable to doing this. If they are expecting a snippet of something I wrote that week then I have to deliver every week for the group to see my proof of creativity, or be pestered until there is a fire lit under my ass. Even just working with them to make us all write should make it that much more manageable and easy to accomplish.

The goal of this group is to take the NaNo out of NaNoWriMo. That way every month simply becomes a Writing Month, even if the word count isn’t as huge as actual NaNo months. Just so long as I am doing something every week toward my goals of writing and publishing, whether it be writing or editing. And if we can make it more interactive with each other like NaNo then there’s motivation.

The only problem in this is that we all have to make the commitment to not slack off on each other, and then actually stick to the commitment, no matter how hectic life gets.


So while all my resolutions are goals in a way, they are not the one-and-done type of goals as the rest of these are.

Read Two Books A Month
Alright, so this technically could have counted as a resolution to simply read more. However, as I talked of, the goal to simply read more is vague. Which is why I came up with the goal of reading two books a month, at least.

Ever since I started working and writing more the time for me to read dwindled further and further. As an author, reading is a must no matter what you think. This goal will help me get back into reading. It doesn’t matter what the book is, how long it is, what it’s about, as long as I am reading something. For instance, my first choice of this month was a book called Meditation For Beginners.

I did, however, give myself a little bit of leeway again in this goal. During the three NaNo months, I let myself slide on only needing to read one book that month.

The easiest way I’m going to accomplish this goal is if I set aside a specific time to read. I came to the conclusion that best time would be at night. If my goal is to be in bed, lights out, by 3am, then by 2:30am I need to be off my computer, phone, whatever I’m working on so that I can sit in bed for half an hour and read. Doing this might even help me sleep, it’s been proven that reading can help you sleep.

Revamp Blog Layout/Info
This is something I should have done last year. I want to go back through my pages and update any information in the About pages so that it is current and reflecting of me. Since, you know, I haven’t changed any of that since I first made this blog…two years ago now I believe. (Wow… Doesn’t feel like it’s been that long.)

I also want to rework the pages that hold information on my stories and books. Instead of being one long list of books on the page, I want to turn each book into a tab under the page. On top of that, I wanted to create a separate page (and hopefully one day more tabs) for anything that is physically published and available for purchase, not my freebies on Wattpad.

I plan to have this completed by the end of January, so if you start seeing things changing a bit, that’s why.

Finish and Submit Clockwork Heart
This is one of my bigger ones that I’ve broken up into two parts. The first part is to simply outline and write the story; the second part is to edit it and submit it with all necessary information.

I have until February 20th to do this.

If the title Clockwork Heart rings a bell that’s because it was the title of one of my Wednesday Words last month. Just like with Embermyst, the story sprung into a full on plot bunny and I’m going to be submitting this to VTP’s Spring Anthology for another chance at publication. That deadline is obviously February 2oth.

By working out a timeline on how to go about this, if I can outline and write it — including a dreaded blurb — by the end of January, that will give me about two and a half weeks to edit and polish it before sending it in. I plan to have it outlined and begin writing by the end of this week.

Complete 2016 Camping Journal Entries
This goal looks very familiar, doesn’t it? That’s because, like the year before, I failed miserably at staying on top of those entries during the camping season. So once more, I have six entries to write before May, and I think maybe one or two sets of notes to complete in order to do so again as well.

Since I have Clockwork Heart to focus on right now, I’m not going to plan to start these until the week of February 19th. Like last year, I will do one a week and I will complete them just in time for the start of April’s Camp NaNo.

The other side to this goal is when the 2017 season starts I need to stay on top of them this year so this goal doesn’t become something that happens every year. I believe I’ve figured out how I can do that too. The last few years I’ve only taken off work the days of the trip, this year I am going to take off the day after each trip as well. That extra day will allow me to catch up on lost sleep, get organized, and also sit down to write the entry while it’s fresh in my mind, as well as loading any pictures I took of that week to my Facebook. If I can do that, I won’t be scrambling at the last moment to write or finish an entry before the next trip rolls around right quick when they are normally only two weeks apart.

Obtain Driver’s License
Alright… This one was on last year’s list as well. To my credit I got half way to it last year, I got my permit. I just never got out much to practice due to circumstances beyond my control.

It’s nearly certain I will not get that dumb little plastic card by the time my permit runs out, so once more I have myself listed to re-acquire my permit once this one runs out of time. Just like last year, I hope to have gotten my license sometime before the snow falls. Say maybe by the end of October.

Providing schedules can work out better this year, I can hope that this goal will be achieved this year.

Re-edit Rivers of Black
This goal is also quite familiar if you recall my last post. Re-editing this story was a goal I set myself last year and I just never quite started to edit it. I’m going to try again this year and I plan to use the month of May to edit it and re-release it on the Wattpad world.

I figured May would be a good time because it’s coming off a maddened induced month of writing for Camp NaNo and will be a little bit of a break from writing. Granted, I’ll still try to hold myself accountable to writing, but my focus will be on editing that month.

Finish Fated to Darkness
Yes, this was another goal I held last year as well. I got close to completing part of this goal last year, but my lack of follow through in non-NaNo months is what became my downfall on the goal.

Now that I’m only about six chapters away from the end of this book, I can definitely finish it this year. If I don’t, there’s something wrong with me. However, it is more than just completing the first draft that I want to accomplish with this novel this year. I also want to have the concordance completed so that I have something to look over in editing to help keep me straight. Lastly, I want to have this rough draft printed and in a binder by the end of the year to be able to begin editing next year. That print out may also include a print out of a list of notes and questions I left myself within the Word doc for when editing comes along. I haven’t decided if I want to simply print them or copy them to a notebook to have handy. Printing might be easier.

To do all this, I planned to have completed writing the book by the end of May. Honestly, if I don’t finish it by the end of April with Camp NaNo or even before that I’m going to kick myself. The more time I have to work on the concordance and print outs, the better. Because, you know, I only have 500 some pages to read through to make notes of and stuff.

If I finish writing hopefully by the end of April, then I will focus on completing the concordance by the end of October, before the holiday madness begins. That gives me time to worry about nothing else but NaNo in November and then gifts and work for the rest of the year. Printing everything will also be easy to do when I’m already out running errands during that time of year.

That’s the detailed goal, now I only need to stick to it again. I’m itching to get to work on it, but Clockwork Heart is going to take precedence right now with a looming deadline.

Get Rid of Yard Sale Items
This goal is the result of one of my goals last year. I had cleaned out my entire room and held a yard sale to sell what I no longer wanted or use. Unfortunately, the yard sale was less than successful and it left me with more than half the stuff I wanted to get rid of sitting around here with no time to do anything with it.

The goal this year is to simply get rid of it all. Whether it be by donating it, craigslist to try to sell more, a Facebook group to sell it, throwing some stuff out, or trying a thrift shop. This will be a good thing to do in June when camping will start to take up some of my time. Simple and easy, as long as I don’t start cleaning something else out in this house. Like the spare room.

Meet a Friend
I only have this listed as a goal because I have a couple online friends I have never actually met face to face. Well, one I have half met face to face thanks to a lovely thing called webcams and Skype, but I still have yet to meet the other.

It doesn’t help when both of you are such introverts that you talk of making plans to meet but then just never follow through on it. I’m totally guilty of that.

So to put it simply, I just want to finally make that meeting happen sometime during this year. Maybe after the snow stops flying though.


That’s it then. That’s my year in a nutshell. 365 days of planning down to one rather long, detailed blog post. Now I can be held accountable to these goals. They are officially written down in some form. All that’s left to do is copy them to my notebook and start getting to work.

Although, I have one last parting thought. If you were to consider one word as your attainable goal this year, what would you pick? What would you strive for? If I had to choose, my word would be creativity. Simply because it can cover such a wide variety of my goals in writing. Or it would be time management, since that is what I need to work on.

If I accomplish even half of these goals, I will be happy with myself. If I make nearly all of them happen, I will be ecstatic. If by some chance I am able to check off every single goal at the end of this year, and will proudly be able to say I didn’t give up on yoga, reading, meditation, writing, and working out, I will be without words. My hope is that this year I finally begin to take my life back in my own hands after years on end of struggling, and that in making new daily habits I will no longer be sitting around lazily or scrolling through my phone because I’m bored.

Here’s to a better year than 2016, and a brighter, better, happier me.

Reflecting On 2016

I’ve been quite absent here the past week or so. Last week was a total madhouse of things going on with the holiday season. The week before Christmas is the final and worst Hell Week when you work retail. Since I had my own things I had to finish to be ready for the holiday on top of working I was going non-stop and a lot slipped my mind, like blog posts. I hardly slept last week with the final rush of things.

(I know I’ve said something similar to this before but roughly ten hours of sleep in a matter of three days is not recommended. I crashed for about 18 hours after that little doozy of a nightmare.)

Things have finally begun to quiet down now that it’s over. At least, work has quieted down from the chicken without a head rushing, there’s still lots to do though. Home life, on the other hand, has not taken the memo to quiet down this week. After putting in two weeks of overtime, I somehow managed to score four days off this week and I was so looking forward to it because this introvert needs about three weeks of calm to realign after the last several weeks before she has to hit another two or three weeks of madness due to inventory.

Unfortunately that calm has not worked out.

Monday into Tuesday morning was my sleep for about 18 hours spell. Tuesday was my first day off (other than Christmas, I didn’t exactly count Christmas as off since there was still no relaxing about it) and I had completely planned for it to be a “fuck it all” kind of day where I was simply going to just sit around and relax finally. I didn’t care if I got anything done or not, and I was not planning to go anywhere.

Right off the bat that got screwed because I had to go out to finish an errand that I couldn’t do on Monday since the post office was closed the day after Christmas, and of course, other people wanted me to do things that day. I said no. The relaxation also got a little cancelled by a bummed out and irritated mood thanks to certain events. Thankfully, by the end of the night I was pretty alright though.

Wednesday I worked and upon getting home I began to hear the news about the company All Romance eBooks closing its doors at the end of the year quite abruptly without warning and basically screwing over its authors and publishers. It gave me a mini heart attack because for a moment I couldn’t remember if my publisher for Embermyst had used them or not. I got lucky, but many others haven’t, and just hearing about it is making me reel and shaking me off center a little.

Now Thursday into today has pretty much been an irritating hell in which nothing has gone to plan thanks to uncontrollable circumstances that don’t even involve me but end up effecting me. I even had off today and, yeah, nothing has gotten done.

At this point, all I’m praying for to whichever god or goddess will hear me is that the rest of this night goes more calmly and that tomorrow mellows out into a good day since I’m again off. Tomorrow better be a good day because it’ll be the first time I get to spend one on one time with someone I hardly see. I don’t want anything to ruin it, not the slightest hitch. You hear me, universe? Not one hitch. No ifs, ands, or buts. That’s my one and only warning. I need something good to end this nightmare year on.

Speaking of this nightmare year, it’s just about over. I think a lot of people are saying “fucking finally” and will be jumping for joy when this year ends tomorrow, or they’ll be flicking off the ball as it drops. Myself included. There have been a few good spots to 2016 but there’s also been a lot of bad that has left a shadow of darkness hanging over this year forever. I honestly believe it will be a year that goes down in history as one nobody ever wants to speak of again.

As I sit here with six candles to light my room, my diffuser running with a blend of essential oils to try to ease my stress and relax, and a CD of hammer dulcimer instruments playing softly, I can’t help but look back on 2016. (Can you tell I was meditating before I began this post?)

A lot has happened this year, and a lot also hasn’t happened this year. Some things were amazing, others were horrific. Some things were half started and never finished, others were never began, and others still were huge accomplishments. It has certainly been a royal roller coaster of a year, and not just for me but for a lot of the world.

The world was rocked by terrorist attacks on Paris. Outrage flew out over the Pulse shootings in Florida. The world reeled at the results of the US Presidential Election. So many influential and amazing actors/actresses, singers, songwriters, producers, and authors passed away this year. DAPL’s heinous acts have gotten little media coverage and left many people outraged by greed and fighting back with the risk to their lives by this point. The Zika virus outbreak caused much panic in women and over the Olympic games. Let’s face it, no one was happy where the Olympic games took place either.

There were spots of light amongst the darkness though.

Thanks to the ALS Ice Bucket Challenge of oh so long ago, the gene responsible for the disease has been identified, giving us new ground to work toward an effective treatment. Scientists learned how to link robotic arms with the part of the brain linked to intent so that they may use them just as we use our own limbs, just by doing. Endangered species’ numbers are growing, like tigers, and pandas, and manatees. World crime is still declining — even if it doesn’t seem like it after this year. A bank firm paid the college tuition for children of employees killed in 9/11. After the Pulse shootings, the Orlando Shakespeare Festival showed up at the funeral for the victims with angel wings to block the view of anti-gay protestors from the proceedings. The world of Harry Potter has not ended with a new book and movie out.

2016 has seemed bleak and despairing, but if we only look at the bad, we will never see the bits of good that have bloomed out of the darkness against all odds either.

The world has seen its massive ups and downs this year, that much is for sure, but what about for me?

With the year ending tomorrow I have found myself reflecting back on the goals I had for this year. Some I had actually completed, others I tried but didn’t quite get very far. A few fell through, and still 2016 held a couple surprises.

Does anyone remember what my goals were? (No cheating by clicking on the link. Lol) Well, I suppose I’d be surprised if ya’ll remembered what my goals were. Somehow I managed to remember them, maybe because I wrote them all down in a nice little journal entry at the beginning of the year.

And ’tis the season to take a walk down memory lane from the whole year so I might as well start walking to see what I accomplished — or didn’t accomplish — this year. Care to join me?


Write Consistently
I suppose my only resolution of this year was to simply write consistently instead of my jumping around in writing this month and doing nothing the next month and so forth. Unfortunately, I still failed pretty miserably at that resolution. I need more discipline to make it work. Something I’m not at all good at.

However, this was the first year I successfully managed a win for NaNoWriMo in November, so I call that an accomplishment. (I tried for it in 2015 too but I had computer issues that rendered me unable to do it.)

After three NaNo sessions working on Fated to Darkness and my short story Embermyst, at the very least I wrote 156,792 words this year. And that doesn’t even include all my Shards of Imagination flash fiction writing or any other writing I did in non-NaNo months. So it’s safe to say I did at least write over 200k this year. (It’d be pretty cool to see what the actual number was if I could ever figure it out.)

*Couple minutes later*

Okay, I did part of the math. If I add in all the words I wrote for Shards of Imagination, I get 203, 177 words. That doesn’t include any of the little bits of writing I did on Fated to Darkness in non-NaNo months so I am definitely over 200k for the year. I wish that number was higher, and I wish I could know just how much I wrote, but I’m not sure I could figure it out exactly. Well… Maybe if I went back through my email to find where I kept leaving off in writing I could get pretty darn close to the exact number. As cool as it’d be to find out I’m not going to try. The 203k also doesn’t include any editing or rewriting I did on Embermyst either.

That’s still a lot of words though.

Re-edit Rivers of Black
This had been one of my “dammit do it already” goals for 2016. I’ve been meaning to re-edit this story for quite some time because I believe it will get some better reads on Wattpad if I clean it up more. (I wrote it years ago at this point.) However, this was one of the goals I failed to get to. I started to get ready for it, I got everything I wanted organized to begin editing it. I just never actually started on it.

Fingers crossed this is something I can actually get to in 2017. (Someone better nag at me to do this.)

Complete 2015 Camping Journal Entries
This goal really should have been completed in 2015 after every single trip I had, as I did the year before. Obviously that didn’t happen in 2015 if it was a goal for this year, and I still haven’t learned my lesson on that one for this past season either, but I did get them done. Almost on the same time frame I had hoped to have them done too: one a week until they were completed. I think I finished about a week late on them but that’s pretty damn good for me that I stuck to it!

Hooray for that accomplishment at least, but I still need to learn my lesson on those entries, because, um, yeah, I did it again this year. Guess who still has all six entries of this year’s season to still write? I’m an idiot.

Obtain My Driver’s License
Yeah… About this one…

This goal had been one of my big, big ones. I’ve only been putting it off and putting it off — for multiple reasons — for a few years now.

To my credit, I got half way to this goal. I did manage to get my permit by the deadline I set myself, which was back in March. However, I’ve only been out to drive less than ten times and haven’t been out in probably five months. Part of that is because I hardly see my dad, who is the only person I trust enough and am comfortable with to teach me to drive; and part of that is simply because the idea of driving on the road still scares the living shit out of me.

Okay, let me rephrase that: it’s not the driving on the road that scares me. It’s the driving with other cars around that scares me. Last night, coming home from work at 3am when the roads were empty I would have been perfectly fine to ask my dad if I could try driving home, even though it was snowing lightly. In fact, he almost thought about asking me that, and if he had I’m 99% sure I would have said yes. But if you ask me to drive on the road during the day… I freeze up.

Sadly, the year limit on my permit will be up in a couple months and I’ll have to go through this whole process again because I know I will not have my license by then. Not when I’ve begun seeing my dad even less than the beginning of this year. Who says next year is going to be any different either with our jobs?

Start Horseback Riding Again
At the beginning of the year, I had really missed riding and had wanted desperately to go back. After talking with a couple friends, I was encouraged to pursue it again because it could have been that one thing that helped me get through each week in a life I was beginning to deem miserable for eternity.

Well, a few months ago I finally took that step and went back to riding at the academy I used to attend. However… While it started out great and I was beginning to gain the confidence I lost three years ago due to my fall, riding rapidly began to lose its charm.

The horse I normally rode switched to a different one that I enjoyed at first but then began to get frustrated with because I was spending more time trying to slow him down from running into the rider in front of me (I ride in a group of three or four per lesson) than I was having fun. I also tended to work every morning before riding and by the time I was getting home I’d have to change and leave. It became exhausting, it became more of a chore than something I enjoyed doing and looked forward to.

Now I haven’t ridden in probably a month and a half between the lesson itself being cancelled or me deciding not to go because I’m exhausted or have had too much to do. I’m to the point now that I’m honestly thinking of dropping the lessons once more, because it really isn’t doing what it used to for me. Perhaps it would be less of a chore if I could get those days totally off work, or if I could get a different horse again, but riding a different horse isn’t up to me, and I had enough trouble the first month or so with my boss screwing my schedule up. I can only imagine how much it’d be screwed again if I asked for Wednesday’s off completely now.

So I accomplished the goal, I went back, but I’m on the verge of giving it up again.

Organize Closet
This was one of my major goals of 2016. At the beginning of the year I didn’t actually believe I would accomplish it. I surprised myself though.

Not only did I organize and clean out my closet, I organized and cleaned out my entire room. I even held a yard sale to try to get rid of the stuff I no longer wanted. To my dismay the yard sale hardly panned out and wasn’t worth half the stress and sleepless nights I put on myself over this goal. Even now I’m still sitting on half the stuff I couldn’t sell because I have had no time to go through it and do something with it since then.

The intent of this goal was so I could finally start to reclaim my room as my own after about four years. Needless to say, it hasn’t really worked out. The only way it’s going to work out is if the spare room is cleaned out as well. Which shouldn’t be a problem since I just did one room, right? Wrong. Not when half the stuff in there is your lazy mother’s who can’t hold a single penny to her word and who is pretty much useless and disrupting if I were to do it anyways.

So while I managed to accomplish the goal of cleaning my closet and room out, it left a mess of things I still have to find a way to work with. I need to get onto either a Facebook group or Craigslist to try to sell the rest of the stuff, and start either donating what I can or throwing the other stuff out.

Finish Fated to Darkness
This… This was my most major of goals for 2016. The one that if I would have completed it I wouldn’t have cared if I accomplished nothing else all year.

Now, this goal included finishing the first draft of the novel and working out the concordance so when I began to edit next year in theory I wouldn’t be so lost. So there was a lot of work involved in this goal.

Unfortunately, I didn’t get all that work done.

To my credit, I nearly accomplished half of that work. The first draft is about six chapters away from being completed after writing feverishly on it for every NaNoWriMo month there was this year, as well as in between at times. I put in over 150k to this story this year, and no, I’m not going to tell you how long it actually is. (I’m hoping editing takes it down in word count a little, the length is even starting to worry me.)

It’s been quite a ride with it this year. Some chapters I stared at my screen slack-jawed in shock with what I just wrote. One in particular I did. Others I wanted to tear my hair out. I got stuck a few times and other times I was on fire, but now I really do see the light at the end of the tunnel after almost two years of working on this novel.

I’m oh so close to the end of the first draft.

And while I wish I could have made it — I probably could have finished it this month if not for work madness — I’m proud of how far I came in it. It’s got a long way to go, and I would be much further if every other month was a NaNo month, but I’m proud of how it — and my writing style — have grown over this year.

Not only that, but I can also proudly say while I didn’t finish this goal, I did accomplish something else completely unexpected and huge:

My debut publication with Victory Tales Press for my story Embermyst in their Halloween anthology, Paranormal Pleasures.

This publication quite honestly made up for not finishing Fated to Darkness. It’s a foot in the door on a dream I hold, it’s the beginning of making a name for myself, and it’s also credibility for when I try to publish my series. So it was huge. Beyond huge even.


Overall, I think I came out about fifty-fifty on my goals. That’s better than I thought I would do, and probably better than any year before too. So I’ll take that as not so bad. Other than my publication I finally passed 100 followers on my Wattpad account, and I even passed 100 WordPress followers here. I call those two things accomplishments as well.

Looking back I think the way I laid out my goals and organized them worked fairly well. It could maybe use a little tweaking for how I do next year’s goals, and I also need to set up my calendar and planner for next year, but I think it’s going to be something I try again. Of course, that would work out even better if I knew what next year’s goals were yet. Because I don’t have a list of them yet, maybe a vague idea, but not a list of them.

That’s the next thing to tackle tonight and tomorrow. Well, that and organizing Christmas gifts I got, as well as setting up my Sunday Snippet posts for January. I think I need to just start with making a list of everything I want to do and go from there.

Hopefully by Tuesday’s post I’ll have an idea on my goals and how I’m laying them out. See ya in 2017, folks. Happy Freaking New Year a day early. Let’s hope this next one doesn’t suck as much.

October Goals and NaNoWriMo

Last Friday I talked about my un-accomplished goals of September and how, much like at the beginning of September, I still did not have any idea on what my October goals were going to be. No surprise there.

So you know what that means? I get to figure them out by rambling on and basically talking to myself here! Hooray!

(Don’t ask, I’ve been in a very strange mood and I am dreading working at 5am, which is only the start of my five day work week and another 5am shift on Monday to boot. I am not a happy camper. If I’m a walking zombie by Tuesday’s post, just hand me caffeine, a blanket, and a pillow, and back away slowly.)

Now where was I? Oh, right, October goals.

Yeah, I’m not sure what I want them to be. I mean, obviously there’s going to be writing involved, but I don’t know how much writing. NaNoWriMo starts up in three weeks and three days and I still don’t know if I’m going for it.

I want to. I want to finally do the big daddy of them all and go for it after three years of Camp sessions, but I’m afraid to. I’m afraid of failing since I can’t choose my own word count goal, and I’m afraid of not having any time or energy to write because…retail, and the holiday season.

I’m still debating with myself on it.

I really should do it. (If I could do 63k in a month for a Camp session, why the hell can’t I do 50k for November, right? Wrong when it comes to retail.) If I do it I’m almost certain I will finish the first draft of Fated to Darkness by the end of November. It probably won’t even take the 50k to finish depending how much I write this month. I’m worried I won’t finish this draft this year if I don’t go for NaNo so I probably should just to push myself and actually make one of my yearly goals this year. I can’t remember half of the other ones right now.

So I should go for NaNo, and if I finish Fated to Darkness before I hit 50k, well, then I’ll either start Book 2 of this series (doubtful) or I’ll add some more words to my neglected first ever novel, Breaking Point.

(I say it’s doubtful I’ll start Book 2 because I want to work on my concordance for Book 1 before I start writing Book 2 so I have everything sorted and together, and my original plan was to finish the first draft and the concordance for Book 1 by December 31st so that I could spend 2017 editing the book, and then starting Book 2. I’m starting to think I might use the first Camp session in 2017 to start Book 2, and just work on Breaking Point until then in between editing to give myself a break. It’s sounding like a good idea now that I actually talked it out with someone earlier.)

Anyways! I’m getting really off topic here from October goals by talking about NaNoWriMo and now 2017 plans. And I’m also inwardly freaking out that I can write Book 2 into my plans because that’s insane that I’ve gotten this far, and AH!

Okay, okay, I’m cool, I’m calm. Just a mini author happy moment to think of finishing this book to start on the second book. *Tiny squee*

OKAY! Back on topic!

So, October goals, again.

I would love to actually finish Fated to Darkness this month and then wing NaNoWriMo or not even worry about it with the holiday. But I am a NaNo addict now, and I think I’ll need the push of NaNo to finish it. So the question then becomes how much should I plan to write for Fated to Darkness this month?

I wasn’t quite sure on that at first, but I’ve been thinking about it and I believe I’ve put the goal of 20k into my head again. It’s a reasonable amount without making myself stress this month since I’ll no doubt be stressing with NaNo next month — if I go for it, probably will have to.

Right now the Word doc I was using to write in to keep easier track of my word count has about 5k words, maybe almost 6k words in it. In my head I’m aiming to see that number between 25-30k by the end of the month.

Now that my writer’s block and pulling teeth seems to be getting out of my way in the chapter I’m on too, I shouldn’t have any trouble reaching that as long as I sit my ass down and write. It shouldn’t be hard, especially now the weight of getting Embermyst ready for publication is off my shoulders. The only things left I have to worry about with Embermyst now that it’s been released are trying to promote yet and figuring out what the hell I’m doing for the Halloween Facebook party in which I am a co-host to for Victory Tales Press’ Halloween Bash.

That stress is mostly off my shoulders now — which is good — and it leaves most of October open for me to focus on whatever once more.

Which, that really means I should plan for a lot more than just writing for this month, but for some reason, I don’t want to stress myself this month. I’ll be stressed next month, and December, I don’t want to die early in the season.

I could be doing all my camping notes, and I could be aiming to write the entries, and I could be aiming for some other things, but I’m leaving them off the plate this month. If I do some, great! If I don’t, I’m not stressing over it. I have three months left to complete my goal of finishing the first draft and concordance of Fated to Darkness, and goddammit I want to make that goal.

So yes, other than focusing on Fated to Darkness, NaNo, and the crap I have to get rid of from the yard sale before Thanksgiving, I’m not stressing on anything else. Those are the only three things I’m worrying about this month, and next month.

At least 20k to Fated to Darkness, be decently ready for NaNoWriMo, and whatever I can knock out on the yard sale crap are my actual goals it looks like. That’s it for October. No more.

Goal Stretching

So remember on Tuesday I said I’d have my in depth look to my September goals today because I honestly wasn’t quite sure on them yet?


I’m still not quite sure on them.

I think part of my problem in deciding on a goal is because I’m unsure how much more of my time the publication work is going to take up. I know there’s some work I still need to do on it, and I haven’t gotten it back yet to know what other suggestions I may have to edit yet so it’s really up in the air how long this back and forth is going to last.

Some of my goals from last month simply need to carry over, which, I think that’s just mainly going to be what September is about: finishing what I didn’t do in August because I got sidetracked on the submission.

I did manage to catch up on all blog hops earlier in the week so I’m back on track to that. I really need to start keeping up with them as the comments come rolling in on the thread. Which means starting on Saturday night/Sunday. Which could potentially start to become a problem when the holiday season sets in. I didn’t have to figure that out last year because I had no computer during that time last year. We’ll see how this starts to go soon.

I had put off the final two catch up Shards I had to write because of a tight deadline I was on so I need to do them. I’m thinking I can knock those two out tomorrow and get updates for Shards of Imagination caught up on Wattpad. Then whatever else little things I want to do tomorrow.

Then there’s also all those camping journal entries I need to write that I still have yet to get to. (I actually think I started the first one at some point and just never finished it. I think. I have to look.) There are five entries I have to write, and three sets of notes I have to finish. (I was apparently wrong when I said two on Tuesday.)

Obviously, to do all of them on top of writing and any publication work yet this month is going to be a lot. I could probably do it, but I’m also sure I’d be stressing myself out in my attempt to get it all done.

So what I’m thinking is this:

If I shoot to write at least three of them this month, then I’ll only have three left to write next month. (There’s one last trip this month then the season is over. Sad face.) That at least breaks it in half for me.

Next month I shouldn’t have to worry about the publication other than it’s release date and doing my own promoting of “Hey! I’m published! Come buy the book and read and support me!” so that’ll free up some of my time to focus on other writing obligations.

I can also finish the notes this month. They aren’t hard. My hardest part to them is looking at the attractions around the campground, giving a few details of them, then using Google Maps to estimate how far they are from the campground. (Oh yes, I am that detailed. One of these days I will write a blog post on it, maybe in a week or two.) I say that’s the hardest part because sometimes campgrounds don’t have attraction brochures in their office so I have to Google things anyways, which takes me more time. Like the last trip.

Here’s what I’m thinking on these camping goals then as a sort of time frame for pacing myself and leaving room for other writing. (Fated to Darkness is really starting to feel neglected.)

There’s four full weeks to September, and if I count all the notes as one thing then I have four things to accomplish this month in my camping journal. The notes and three written entries. That’s one a week.

That’s doable. I did it at the start of 2016 when I neglected 2015’s entries as well and it worked well for me. (I really need to learn to keep my ass on track with these things and write them before the next trip comes around. I used to be so good at that.)

So next week I am going to focus on finishing the three sets of notes. It’s more like two and a half but close enough. One is just finishing attraction notes. One won’t be so bad because it’s a same campground I went to last year but I have to add a little because they expanded since last year. And the last full one is a really small, simple campground so there won’t be too much to record on it.

Then after that I’ll write the first three entries of 2016’s camping season one a week. It’s something I can do on a day off and be done with each week, even though my writing them can take about an hour or so depending on how much the campground had and how many attractions are around. Some entries are easy, others seem to take forever.

If I stick to that thinking and schedule that’s what I’ll do for those goals. But I still need to get some novel writing in there.

Last month I had opted for a 20k goal on Fated to Darkness. Thanks to the submission, I only got about 5k written. I had wanted to be able to finish the book this month but I know that’s not going to happen now so I’ll have to push that back another month and aim for it next month.

(I really want to have this first draft finished before the holiday madness in retail hits that way I can focus on the easier concordance notes side of the book during those stressful months. So by…mid-November, even a little earlier, I want to be writing the end of the epilogue.)

But then what word count goal do I settle on for this month if I want to manage that?

I don’t know how many words I really have left to this novel. I’m horrible at estimating that as well but I’m thinking it’s under 50k, maybe under 40k. I hope.

A friend told me I should carry over the leftover of my goal from August, which is 15k words, and I’m starting to think that’s a good idea.

It’s not a huge goal in case I get swamped with submission work or the dreaded day job yet, but it’s also enough that I’d be back to where I wanted to be this month. More than 15k would be great, the less I have to write next month then, but I think I need to aim a little lower than I’d like just in case things pop up.

I guess I’m shooting for 15k at the least then.

And I guess that then wraps up what my goals are for September, now that I’ve literally figured them out by rambling to all you folks.

Two Shards and catch up updates to Wattpad, two and a half sets of camping notes, three camping journal entries, and at least 15k words to Fated to Darkness. Among whatever other submission work pops up.

That should be doable. That better be doable.

Goal Crunching

Another weekend has come and gone, and with it comes the end of August. Where has the time gone? Didn’t August just start?

With the end of August also comes the deadline of all the goals I had for August, and, er, well…

*Clears throat, looks off innocently*

Can I skip talking about that? Let’s just say I did horrible.

In truth, not one of my goals was accomplished. *Sigh* I know I still have two days left to August but none of it is going to get done more than likely. I mean, unless I can write 15k in Fated to Darkness, two sets of notes for journaling, and five entries for that journaling in two days time, it ain’t getting done. In fact, it’s more like one day because my Wednesday is shot to hell between work and riding until about 8 o’clock at night.

What fun! Not!

I actually could get the notes done in time, and probably should before I forget any more of them.

I guess it’s not too bad that I didn’t get any of those goals done, though. I mean, I did write an almost 10k word short story, and submitted it for a chance to be published, and I am getting published. I did write it and edit it in the span of 12 days, and then had to putz around editing it once more when I got it back for a look over.

(Which I just finished that yesterday and sent it back so we’ll see what suggestions, if any, come back to me this time.)

So it wasn’t like I wasted the whole month. I was busy. Work drained me a couple weeks, I worked my ass off writing this story and submitting it. I did do about 5k worth of words on Fated to Darkness before I got sidetracked on the submission.

I did write then. I did do something in the world of a writer. It just wasn’t the goals I was supposed to be doing.

Go figure.

Not to mention right now I’m a week behind on blog hops thanks to work and a lot of other stress… Yeah, that’ll be my later today goal, plus some writing and whatever else needs done, like scheduling Sunday Snippet posts for September. My villain and hero of FtD are feeling quite neglected, too. Yet I’m still struggling a bit to get back into them, I’m managing a few hundred words at a time, that’s it.

So now that August is coming to a close, what are my goals going to be for September? Well… Maybe I’ll save that in depth topic for Friday’s post. (Mainly because I’m not quite sure on them just yet.)

Hello, August. So Long, Camp.


Welcome to August, Darklings!

Where has the time gone? Summer is half way over. Pretty soon we’ll be thinking of back to school and college, warm hoodies and bonfires, pumpkin flavored everything, changing leaves, breezy days, and, of course, All Hallow’s Eve. (That last one I’m totally okay with. I honestly wish Valentine’s Day would become a second Halloween. Or would it be first Halloween since Valentine’s Day is in February and Halloween is in October?)

But with the flipping of the calander again comes the dreaded task of looking back on the month before and frowning at all you had planned and didn’t get done. Then on looking at the new month and feeling overwhelmed as you try to cram last month’s goals and this month’s goals into one month.

Oh what fun.


Well, looking back on July, the month didn’t turn out as I had hoped.

Yes, I did get another win in my books for Camp NaNo. Sadness — it’s over again until next April. There needs to be more Camps! But I still have November madness to drive myself crazy with. On top of the holiday season in retail. What fun!

Again… *Heavy sarcasm*

Besides Camp NaNoWriMo, I did manage to get my entire room cleaned out and organized. I still have to go through my books, and I might have missed a small drawer and file container I should go through yet, but those last two are minor. It’s the books I need to do before Saturday. For Saturday is my fast approaching yard sale.

I still have half a room to get through yet, and some cupboards in my bathroom. (Because I know I have an old fish tank in there I can sell, among a few other things.) There is not enough time in the day or days left in this week to get through everything I need to. I’m seeing some very late nights ahead of me, a lot of caffeine, and a lot less sanity. There’s too much I have to do yet.

Yesterday I did get the signs made finally, and an ad on Craigslist. I still need to go out and post them though because my Monday plans were screwed thanks to the Evil Day Job in which I stayed 3 hours later than I was supposed to.

Granted, I do need the hours and we are stressed right now because of a lot going on. (Worst time of the year in retail is BTS — Back To School. Christmas is as bad as this. Doesn’t help when you throw a lot of trouble and the big big BIG bosses’ visit in that mix.) I’m only getting two days this week compared to my eight straight last week. It’s only because I requested off days to be ready for the yard sale, plus camping and horseback riding thrown in the same week. My stress level might thank me for the time off, but my bank account won’t.

And I am getting way off topic of goals!


Looking back on July I got a win in Camp NaNo, and I got my room cleaned out and organized. I kept up with writing two Shards a week for my flash fictions to play catch up on the ones I missed due to my computer crash. I’m back on track for posting and for Sunday Snippets. (Though I’m behind on last week after that Hell Week.)

Except… Other than those four things about, I got nothing else done I was supposed to.

I didn’t catch up on any of my camping journal entries. I didn’t even finish the notes for the last one, or start the notes for the one I just came back from. I’m now four entries behind in writing that. I didn’t get through cleaning the spare room, though I finally started on Sunday. I haven’t gone through my books yet as I mentioned.

There’s a lot I should have done and ended up not getting to, or just became lazy and worn out and didn’t do then. And it puts me even further behind for August…

So what are my goals for August then?

I have to get the camping journal entries caught up this month. I HAVE to. (Someone crack the whip on me for this one.) I have created my own Cabin away from NaNo Cabins with a couple friends to continue motivating myself to keep writing, so I set myself a 20k goal for Fated to Darkness this month. (I’d love to finish the book this month, but with the yard sale and journal entries yet, I will settle for 20k. It’s only 5k a week. I aim to finish the whole book next month. *Squee!*) By this time next week I should all be done with yard sale things and cleaning. Thankfully.

Other than those three things, I have nothing else major planned for this month. Of course there’s always Snippets and other menial things that I have to do each month, but those are the big three for August. Here’s hoping I actually make them this month.

I guess y’all will find out at the end of August/beginning of September if I actually made these goals this time. Hell, I’ll find out myself.

Plans Hitched

I am cutting this post extremely close to the midnight deadline of Friday tonight, and I am so blaming work for that. You see, today was supposed to be my first day off of a period of five, after working seven days straight.

Supposed to be.

At 9:45 this morning, I was rudely awakened by my phone going off on vibrate. I was trying to catch up on sleep after only getting an hour of Z’s the night before, and not going to bed until 4am as well last night. (I know, I’m a idiot night owl.) But there’s my phone buzzing off the hook, and at first, this was my initial reaction:


Who the hell was bothering me now at that hour? The only people I know and talk to knew I was going to try to catch up on sleep this morning.


Oh who cares, it was just a text, they could wait. So I rolled back over, got all settled once more to fall back asleep for another hour…or two…

*Buzz! Buzz!*

And after the fourth buzzing, I knew it was no longer a text, but someone was calling me. And there was only one person, or place, that would be calling me at that time in the morning. So, naturally, I’m starting to swear rather violently into my pillow.


Finally I grabbed the phone to stare at the dreaded word “work” on the caller ID. My first urge was to just let it go to voicemail.


And then I remembered that I screwed up the past few times they needed me and my phone was off or dead. (Can you tell I don’t use my cell phone often?) So begrudgingly after the next insistent buzz, I answered the phone with a groggy hello and am asked to come into work to pick up a cashier shift until four because the morning cashier called off and there was literally no one else they could call but me.

And what do I tell them?

Well, my first answer was can I see if I have a ride, to buy me some time to contemplate saying no since I did have plans today. Twenty minutes later I’m calling them back and telling them I’ll be in to work the shift. Go figure.

So my five days off has turned into four days off after working eight days straight and I am still so exhausted. I had plans, plans that were now bumped back a day and nearly screwed over as well, plans that are now going to force me to be up late yet again instead of catching up on the sleep I had interrupted this morning. And plans that had initially meant doing this post when I woke up this morning.

Four days off is still decent, yes, I do realize that. But my to do list is also growing endlessly and I really wish I had today to be able to cross off the two things I had wanted to get done today, maybe three.

I had it all planned out as well. It was going to go: read a chapter, schedule a Snippet post for the rest of this month and April with Camp coming up, read a chapter, schedule a post, etc etc. And I thought about throwing the laundry in that mix afterwards, if not a few other minor things. I was even going to resign myself to staying away from Wattpad for the day. What I had wanted to read throughout the whole day to break up its boring drone is now going to have to be hurriedly read late into the night, and I won’t get to sleep in tomorrow either. No snippet posts were scheduled, and no laundry was washed. Nothing was crossed off that endless to do list.

Now I’m not quite sure how the rest of my four days is going to go. Though I do know that phone is getting turned off pretty soon for I need these days off to get things done. Once I go back to work Wednesday, I work until Easter, and if I don’t get these things done before Wednesday it is going to be a it’s-not-going-to-happen-then moment.

These four days are going to be crucial to me. Crucial as in I either get caught up and ready for the holiday, or I will be even further behind. Because, don’t forget, Camp NaNo starts in exactly two weeks, so I am running out of time quickly to be caught up so I don’t have to focus on anything but writing in April.

So here’s praying the rest of my plans go as planned and things run smoothly, because I do not have time for anymore hitches. Wish me luck, and a put a good word in for me to the universe so it actually listens and plays nice this time. It’d be quite helpful…

March Goals

Okay, maybe before I get into that I should start by saying how February’s goals went, and, well…

They didn’t go so much as planned.

I started off really good! I was writing consistently, I kept up with my Wednesday Words flash fictions, I was on track with the camping entries, and I had my doctor appointment scheduled.

And then everything just got shot to hell in the last week and a half of February. Now I’m behind and rather…discouraged.

You see, first it was the weather that screwed me and ended up cancelling my doctor’s appointment that I couldn’t get rescheduled until March. Now I know this one isn’t such a big deal, it’s not a big set back, but it just makes me hate that nothing seems to ever go right for me. And left me thinking “why do I bother?” again.

Then I got pretty sick and it sapped away all my energy and will to do anything. Work stress wasn’t helping matters either and I just didn’t get anything done at all for the last week and a half.

Which means now I’m behind…

I didn’t finish out the camping entries I was supposed to have done by the end of last week, I still have two to finish because of it. I ended up not getting anymore writing done, though I did keep up with the flash fiction prompts. I don’t even have my snippet posts set up for March yet.

Overall, February just turned into a bust towards the end.

But March… March is a new month and maybe I’ll get things back on track. Maybe.

So what are my goals for March then? Since I had everything so carefully planned out at the beginning of the year when I wrote things out to get my thoughts in order — and so far isn’t going much to plan.

Well, the original goals of March were to get that stupid piece of paper that states I can start to legally learn to drive. Then I wanted to be ready for Camp NaNo in April — yes, I am already thinking about it. I’ve been thinking about it. I also want to re-edit Rivers of Black and re-release that onto the Wattpad world. And now because I didn’t finish up things from February, I have two journal entries to finish as well.

It doesn’t seem like too much, right?

I’ve got a decent first week of March with days off from work — finally, thankfully, I really needed the break. Hopefully that means I will get my butt going again and get back on track. But so far I haven’t gotten much done on my first day off when I have other obligations. Hopefully my next two days off will be better and I will get more caught up.

If I can, I plan to finish off the two camping entries tomorrow and Thursday, as well as one of two other things. Tomorrow is also Wednesday though so that means flash fiction piece to write, though.

So I guess I will see how this month goes. Here’s to hoping I pull things back together and get back on track. And stay on track this time around.

New Month, New Start

Yeah, I know, it sounds so cliché, but that’s essentially what it boils down to anymore.

January actually went pretty decent for me, for once. I got through some journaling, got all my goals and such set up, made a tentative time frame that I believe I can work with for the rest of the year, got myself caught up and crossed off some never-ending to do things that have been sitting on my list for ages, etc. etc.

So yeah, I’d say January went fairly well. Though there are a few things I need to work on yet. Like writing more consistently.

I have kept myself to writing a short flash fiction piece every week on Wednesday. (Granted it’s only been three weeks so far… But hey, that’s three weeks I haven’t slacked off, I will pat myself on the back for that considering my reputation with follow through.) The fact that I have begun to post them to Wattpad along with here is helping me to stick to that goal. Now I just need to keep myself going on working on Fated to Darkness. I don’t care if it’s a hundred words a day, I just need to plop myself down in the morning before friends trickle on to talk to me and I get sidetracked, or late at night when friends finally fall off to bed but my night owl ass is still awake…

You get the picture.

Depending on the day of the week and other things I do at times manage to get some stuff accomplished in between chatting and other distractions, but I get more done without those “oh! shiny object!” moments popping up as notifications. Not that I really mind. In fact, I don’t mind at all the notifications, as they normally always pertain to good friends to talk to.


So how is February going to go for me then?

Well, there are a few things I have on the monthly to do list. (I have really started making lists and tentative plans for everything this year. So far, it seems to be helping.)

This month’s focus is finishing the long overdo camping entries in my journal so that I can be ready for the new season come May. I got the first of five entries done yesterday — a day late on my schedule, but it’s done — and now I have four left. My plan was one a week.

Manageable, right? It’s not that hard. One entry every week that ranges anywhere from five to seven-eight pages handwritten. Not hard.

Since I have today off yet, I plan to get the second entry knocked out today so I have the rest of the week to focus on writing, reading for a friend, and blog hopping. Oh, and did I mention I got all Sunday Snippet posts set up and scheduled for this month? That takes one more thing off my list to do for each week. All I have to remember to do now is edit to put the link in for last week’s snippet — because I can’t figure out how to get the link for something scheduled but not actually posted yet — and then remember to share it to the Facebook group.

The other major thing I have noted as a goal for this month is to go for a yearly physical again so that I can go take that blasted permit test next month sometime and be on my way to completing one of my yearly goals. I kind of have to call the doctor’s office to make an appointment though… Might be helpful to do that first.

Those two things are the goals of February though: Finish the camping journal entries and go for that stupid physical where I’ll listen to the doctor nag once more at me just for a signed piece of paper. (Can you tell I hate any kind of appointment?) Oh, and of course there’s keep writing. Keep writing consistently. Always keep writing.

(Well, the major goals that go towards my yearly goals at least. Of course there’s other menial things, like cleaning my room…)

But there it is, laid out on the table once more for all to see and hold me accountable to. It’s a new month, time to hit the ground running again.


(Oh, and just one last thing… a Blessed Imbolc to all who celebrate! Winter has finally reached its midpoint! Let Mother Earth begin to reawaken! I cannot wait for Springtime.)

blessed imbolc