How do you write a blog post when you have absolutely nothing writing related to talk about?
The answer is I don’t know, but I guess I’ll figure it out as I go because that’s exactly what I’m doing right now.
You would think that because I’ve had the last four straight days off work that I should have a ton of words written and be done with Fated to Darkness and have moved onto Clockwork Heart. You would think that I should have done 20k or more in these past four days and be close to goal, or upping it.
But no. You would be wrong.
Very, very wrong.
Four straight days off. FOUR! And I haven’t written a single word.
Why? Why, me? Why do you do this to yourself?
It’s Camp NaNo. You are supposed to be WRITING.
(Yes, I am yelling at myself.)
In my defense — or maybe this is my excuse, which, *slaps self*, bad me! — it has been a fairly busy four days. Saturday was spent catching up on everything I didn’t finish the beginning of that week thanks to holiday madness. Sunday was Easter of course which meant spending time with family and apparently it also meant coming home sick that night with a splitting migraine. Monday was a friend’s birthday so that meant I had to spend time with them, and I was still feeling a bit iffy that morning. And today…
I don’t know what happened to all of today. I think I pretty much screwed my own morning and afternoon. The evening was spent at the hair dresser where I got my first ever coloring. (I got highlights, and it’s amazing how stunned every single hairdresser was I had never done any coloring with my hair before. I was like a star. LOL) But let me just say… AHH! I love it!
Anywho, as I was saying…
My four days off were pretty much screwed. I know I should have had writing time in every single one of them, but it just…didn’t happen. (Well, except maybe for Easter.) I guess I really am just making up excuses now, because I know I should have been writing Saturday night after I finished things and settled down, and if I had been up a bit early on Easter I could have written something before leaving and ending up sick the rest of the night. Monday I could have done some writing before I went to bed, and today I should have done some before my hair appointment.
I could have, I should have on all accounts, and I…didn’t.
I’ve pretty much completely failed at Camp NaNo this time around.
You know what the really scary and disappointing bit to this is though?
Facebook does those “on this day so-and-so years ago” memory posts and do you know how many words I had last year in April on the 11th?
40,131 words. Forty thousand, one hundred and thirty-one words.
In just over a week I had managed 40k last year.
I’ve just barely broken 13k and we’re almost three full weeks into this month. It’s half over already! And I’m below par by 5k, about to be 6k at midnight. I haven’t written a word in a week.
What the hell happened to me?
Did I just completely and utterly fall apart this time around, or… ??????
I don’t even know anymore.
The good news is I have one more day off before I go back to work, which means if I really light a fire under my ass, I can pull off probably 8k words easily, especially if I write a lot before I crash tonight too. And I’m pretty sure there’s someone who can light the match for me… The same person who is already glaring at me from the virtual world, and threatening me playfully in a way that I can’t tell if its bluffing or not — and I’m not sure I want to find out, and who also may or may not be ready to chase me with a sword as my Muse instead of the ever so popular…
Okay, well, maybe not chase me. That would defeat the purpose of sitting and writing, but the gun in that photo might turn into a sword instead pretty soon. Or a whip. Or… Yeah, I’m going to stop imagining what she might have the capability of pulling out to make me write. I really can’t tell if she’s bluffing. LOL.
The bad news is as of right now my “At This Rate You Will Finish On” date is May 12th, I need an average of 1.3k words a day to win on time, I won’t be bumping my goal up anymore this month like I had hoped, and after this last day off I will essentially be screwed the rest of the month because our assistant manager will be going on vacation now, which again means more flipping hours I don’t want right now.
Nothing like a closing in deadline and running out of time to make me write, right?!
Gods I hope so. This novel was supposed to be done in the first week of NaNo.