I’m running out of time.
There are eleven days left to the first Camp NaNo of 2016 and I have completely fallen apart.
I don’t think I burned myself out on writing, I just…don’t have any heart or motivation to write right now. I was doing really good and then as always emotions got in the way — as did work — and I haven’t regained my momentum.
So now I’ve got eleven days to write 18,810 words to hit my 60k goal. Unless I suddenly get my second wind, I’m not going to hit my desired 70k. It bugs me that I won’t reach that probably when I had set my heart on it.
I mean, I still have eleven days, if I tried I could reach it. I did 40k in about a week, so another 30k would be possible. I just don’t know if I can find my motivation with enough time to still hit that 70k.
It is possible, I only work six of the those eleven days now that I’m no longer needed to help out another store. So that’s five days completely free to writing.
It’s doable. I know it is.
But there’s still the problem I’m struggling to come up with the next few chapters. I mean, I have a sort of idea on how they need to work, but I’m also wondering if I forgot to involve a different character. The more I think though — and the more I confuse myself — I come to think I need to leave this character for the next book. Except that screws up the view I thought I had about an outline when I look at things down the line. So I’m really not too sure.
I also think I might be rushing the end of this book a bit. I can fix it in edits, I know, but I feel a little confused on how I’m supposed to be proceeding.
I really need to get working on those planning chapters. I seem to keep getting sidetracked though…
The clock is ticking down to May, so I better light a fire under my ass soon. Or maybe I need to pull an all nighter to work on everything and just grab a Dr. Pepper or Monster the next day. It’s tempting…