The Descent Into Madness

And this time I don’t just mean for Camp NaNoWriMo.

While the descent into that madness does start tomorrow, I have been spiraling down into madness on more than one thing lately.

Remember me saying on my post last Friday that I had a seven day straight work period and finally three days off after it this past weekend? Well, that weekend was shot due to constant dreary weather and rain. And my day back to work today wasn’t any better.

It was definitely Monday, and I swear it was a random Mercury in Retrograde fluke with all the tech problems I had at work.

Just to keep things nice and sweet, let’s just say my registers were not accepting credit or gift cards, the wi-fi was completely down, and the phone lines were not receiving calls and putting any out. Not to mention a few various other things. I pretty much played phone tag (using my cell phone) to get ahold of everyone I needed to about the problems, which took up most of my night so I didn’t get much done at all.

Between the Hell Week of work I had (which was my seven day straight work period), my dismal three day vacation that got rained on, and this lovely night of weirdness and frustration, I feel like I’ve lost my mind.

Tonight was definitely a shoot-me-now kind of night.

So besides my descent into madness over all those lovely adult problems, Camp NaNo is about to spiral me down even further into insanity.

Or maybe I’ve already hit rock bottom in that department. I don’t even know anymore.

I was supposed to have off on Wednesday for the start of Camp, but I’m now picking up a shift for my GM (general manager) because my DM (district manager) called a sudden GM meeting in which she has to go to on that day after the schedule was made and since I’m the only one that can pick that shift up, guess who now has to work?

Not too happy about that.

I was looking forward to having the first day of Camp off to try to build a cushion for Camp. (Goddess knows I will need it.) But now since I no longer have that day off, plus I’m working Wednesday through Sunday, I am going to be scrabbling to keep at goal for the beginning of the month already.

Not how I wanted to start this Camp off.

Luckily, I do have today off so I can hopefully get some other things out of the way and be all set up for Camp tomorrow. That way I can just dive right in and hopefully hash out a thousand words a day. Because yes, I am an idiot and set my goal to 31k for the month. Which means I need 1k a day to make that goal on time.

Fingers crossed I keep to it this time. I’m trying to pep talk myself into keeping with it and not changing my goal towards the end of the month because I know I won’t make it. Like last Camp in April. I’ll see how it goes.

But if I get things set up tomorrow, like small outlines or something, and then make sure I light a fire under my ass for the rest of the month, I think I’ll be okay. Work killing me is going to be my biggest problem when I don’t have much time off. I’m already exhausted as it is, this is just going to add to it.

So I think I’m just going to see what else I can get done before July 1st, cross my fingers, and hope I don’t spiral too much¬†farther into madness.

Who am I kidding though?

I’m already there.