Not that I have any sanity left to begin with lately…
Between work, a new sort of responsibility, other issues, stress, and a whole hell of a lot more, I feel like I lost my sanity and my peace of mind a month ago at the least. (Mostly the same reason I haven’t posted here in two weeks. Oops…)
And I’m about to dive off the deep end even more by joining in the April Camp NaNoWriMo event.
Probably because I’m an idiot and stupid and can’t think straight anymore from lack of sleep and stress.
April’s Camp kicks off in about 22 hours now.
I’m so NOT ready.
While I do know what novel plot bunny that’s been bouncing around in my head I’m going to work on, and I know what sort of general direction I want it to take, and the characters already; I have no outline or notes set up for it. Sort of. I basically know these characters and there tales by heart already.
(When I say this one has been bouncing around in my head, I mean it’s really been bouncing around up there for a LONG time. Try years. Lots of years. As long as I can remember. Get my drift? I’ve pretty much written the whole series in my head at least once already. Now I just have to fine tune the details and actually get it out of my head and down on paper, er, screen.)
Now let’s just hope I don’t make the same mistake I did for Camp in July of 2014 where I wrote no notes at all and screwed myself by the time I got to 30k words. I confused myself big time on that novel that is still in progress. (Still need to go back through that too…)
I’m excited, but also nervous already. Hell, I’ve been both excited and nervous for over a week now. Since I registered for this Camp a couple weeks ago I’ve been both. Dreading it but also looking forward to it.
I set myself another low goal: 20k. Mainly because of work and other things going on, and I’m already writing a lot of summary type things for a club I belong to. Every day, too. It’s tiring. So between all that, I set myself low again so I
hopefully don’t fail. Even though my original goal was to do 30k this Camp, 40k in July’s Camp, and then go for the big 50k in November. Seemed reasonable to me but I just don’t think I can tackle 30k right now with all that’s going on in my life.
(Don’t get me wrong, I’d love to be able to do it, but I’m not going to dig myself too deep right off the bat. I know I’ll dig myself that deep come the last week of April.)
If I by some miracle I manage to do 30k this Camp, awesome. If not, oh well. I’ll be happy if I hit 20k. It’s better than a big fat Easter egg. (I’m so exhausted that I actually found that pun funny.)
So here goes! The countdown into madness has begun! And the descent into insanity is fast approaching! I’m about to kiss the last of my sanity goodbye for the month of April. If I even have any left right now.
I’m thinking I don’t.
Wish me luck! I’m going to need it.
(No, seriously, I’m going to need it. Thank the Goddess for Camp Cabins, they are my motivation.)